i have a new blog... haha......... grrr.... my server is plunging up!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.......... my images are not working so well,,,,,,,, grrr............ anyway,,,Get transported....
ciao!!

i am SORRY for the layout, the color... everything... i know it's somewhat blinding.... i'm really really sorry,, i will be changing my layout soon.................

i'm putting up this entry to narrate what happened on my first and second week. gawd,a lot had happened...

FIRST WEEK

MONDAY: i found out i REALLY belonged to ST.CHRISTOPHER... it was THE 3rd section...lol... i really don't know how that crap happened.. haha.. anyway, ms.peñamora is our adviser... (fyi, she's my friend's mother...may that be an advantage or not..) there were lots of unfamiliar faces...well, obviously, that shoud happen... anyway, there was not much except for lots of introductions...

TUESDAY-FRIDAY: gawd,,,, it was really hard to study while having that great lump on your chest... every teacher seems very expectant... i dunno.... just because we were on the "3rd section", we were already obliged to do GOOD... that's just freaking unfair! last thursday, i attended the first aquinian meeting..(i've told about me being the literary editor, riight?) haha.. anyway, i was asked to do certain things - IT WAS PRETTY EASY- i think he (ehrlich-EIC) didn't have anything for me.. haha... lolz.. and then, on friday,, AT LAST!!!!! i had a great, good rest...

SECOND WEEK

it was another week of pressure.. hate it hate it hate it hate it... it was the most pressured days of my life. i just wish everything would be back to NORMAL..

i guess i do not have much to say, but i just wanna share....

-i'm still in love with you-
-i guess it's obvious if you just try to look into my eyes-
-but you never bothered, you never did-
-i'm still in love, deeply, entirely, forever i might be-
-for you, and only you-

sometimes you LOVE a person too much and it just makes you the less of who you are. you make the worst sacrifices until the certain point that YOU think you're worth but BE LOVED. it's true that things don't really work the way you thought it would be. you end up feeling SORRY for yourself!


...EUGH


sometimes LOVE can make you someone else. it's full of mischevious pretentions. you begin to feel you're this coveted, essential, special little someone but you are NOT!!! try to open your eyes. this world makes you do that. LOVE motivates it.

i promise i won't be one of you........

not tomorrow, the day after.... NEVER

oUr cOmPuTeR iS nOt wOrKiNg sO i'M rEnTiNg

we went BLACK EYED PEAS concert last may 29... it was just AWESOME!! hehe... anyway, the crowd was just crazy that even if you do not know who the performers were (which is practically absurd) you will still have fun, BIGTIME! haha... will.i.am was just funny. there had been a problem with the sound system that they had to stop for a while. will.i.am started entertaining the people and he was just freaking funny!! hahahahaha... i really like them.. fergie was extremely gorgeous. haha... she's a freakin good dancer. and of course apl.de.ap was there.. (fyi, apl was born in the philippines.ü) one word to describe them all, SUPER!!!!!!

i've watched harry potter!!!!!!!! daniel was just CUTE.. well, looking at his features, he's a little grown up than the first harry potter... but i don't care,, he's just super GWAPO!!!!!!!!! haha... emma watson had grown too.. she's starting to becaome young lady, which she is, i think,,,,, anyway,,,,i'll be right back for more entries!!!!!!!!

.......after our computer starts working again...........

P.S: by the way,, i'm so proud! i've finally finished my first song!!!!!!!!!!!! haha....

i've just watched THE movie. gawd,,, do yo really wanna hear THE story? okay... i'm not really good at summaries but as i've watched it, this is my outcome.

ai lin (shu qi) and ai kwan (zhao wei) are sisters having a dark past. their parents were killed because of their father's invention know as the "world panorama". it was supposed to have a bird's eye view of almost everything in the world. the said invention was supposed to be surrendered to the police since the family knows it was the best place for it. unfortunately, the baddies got the news first and murdered the parents. it was except for this one killer who helped the sisters escape from the murderers, giving ai lin her first shot. eventually, ai lin learned how to hand a gun, and aim it at anything that might harm her and ai kwan. thus, making her one heck of a killer.

ai lin had been very protective of her younger sister, ai kwan. she never lets ai kwan do the killing job. she's always the one working on the computer and things like that. ai lin's only intention was to protect ai kwan from the dirty world of serial killers. ai kwan didn't understand it until THE unfortunate accident which i will tackle on later.

the sisters had another job to make. they killed this guy named chou, who has a younger brother. eventually, this younger chou was the real antagonist. as the murder was being investigated by -idunnohername- (karen mok), a smartass and good martial artist-cop-forensic, the sisters had their own worst advesary.(but, that was just in the beginning when karen thought the sisters were really the ONLY murderers.)

karen mok found out who the "computer angel" (shu qi) was because of ai kwan's teaseful attitude. ai kwan let karen hear the song (close to you) which was the main clue of the murder. it led karen to hunting every step ai kwan makes until all of them crossed unto each other on an elevator right after another massacre.( -short starter- ai lin told her sister to cancel all "murder schedule" since she wants to prove that they could live without killing anymore. ai kwan thought the reason her sister wanted to do so was -this guy- in short, ai kwan thought ai lin was just in love that's why she didn't want to do anything about the killing anymore) okay, back to the story. karen, her partner, and the sisters finally met in an "unsocially" and "unfriendly" way. they fought, fought....... until the younger chou's boys showed up that's why they needed to be on each other's side.-get the point?-

it was karen and ai lin's birthday. -the saddest part-... the night before, the sisters had a fight but never got the chance to reconcile except for ai kwan's little present/apology. it was a mushy video of her punishing herself,, blah blah blah.... she left the house early to fetch ai lin's cake and flowers but karen got in the way so it was proceeded by a pursuit. ai kwan asked for her sister's help.(they have the "world panorama", right?) unfortunately, ai lin was shot while helping her sister escape karen. -it was the saddest part ever... i cried cried cried cried cried cried cried.....-

karen and ai kwan fought together to kill ai lin's murderers. 2 reasons: 1. vengeance for ai lin 2. karen was framed up so she will be the one being prisoned. there they fought and fought fought fought fought fought fought...... and at the end, ai kwan kissed karen (what?! hehe...) ai kwan was lesbian,,,lols... anyway, the movie ended with ai kwan visiting her family's graves. *sigh*

it was a really really action packed, sad movie...... i don't like the part where shu qi died.... it was extremely sad since i love having sisters which i don't..ggrrr... i's hard being an only child.. anyway,,,,, i totally LOVED this film... it was to be shown on cable next next sunday but i still bought a copy..(original, mind you.. haha!) i really hope you understood my story... hehehe.... it's quite long, huh?........ *sigh*........... i'll try to be back for more entries... lols....

§§§§§§§§GIRL POWER!!!!! §§§§§§§§

i made this poems last last night.. hah! you might find redundancy with the words.., i dunno,,, i was just in the moment for it...=p it was just a very dark and sad night and mayel was just out of tune.... *sigh*

** Charmed by: mayel subtle murmurs echoed through the distant covers coveting strength of fullfilling power to vanquish the extrovert adversary summoning the house of ancient wicca adore the magical night of conspicuous existence say the utterly embroidered spell, brew such elemental potion tonight, the tale will be raised from the crypt three powers unfurl, sisters of eminent hurl proclaim the sacred vows, fullfill thy promise of invulnerability unite thy great power of three**

** stranger by: mayel scurry footsteps form upon my mind i began to hear and feel the presence i've longed to find my anonymous existence has been my only attempt to get near i've never felt so mundane, so vulnerable - superficial and cliche- i walk beneath your footsteps and land at your pace -introvert little me- i began to stutter, ashamed of what to speak meant to be a stranger, thy love i will seek... **

she was no longer beside me. oh how that woman made me smile. she was the biggest part of me, that when she was gone, i was gone too. i tried to save her by ending the world. sometimes irony can just go into ones system and be something untouchable, invulnerable. i tried to save her, but i failed.
at first, i blamed myself for her death. i blamed myself for letting her be the one who was hurt, but i didn't see i was the reason for her sorrow. when she died, i didn't realize that i should be strong for her. she has faith in me. i never knew that what she wanted was for me to move on. i loved her. i was a woman in pain. i am willow, and forever i will be.
forever i will love the woman who puts smile on my face. tara mclay, i will love you forever.

firstly i'm putting this entry because i am a certified jasmine trias fan.secondly, if you don't know her, go ahead and do not read this.

i just heard randy jackson say american idol is a competition to find out who has the "talent". okay, that "talent" depends upon who defines it. if you define it as "cool-you're the bomb-doug,dude" kinda thing, ask randy. if you define it as "frankly speaking-you suck-that's a great performance but it's not enough", ask simon. lastly, if you define it as "you're very good-that's great" kinda response, ask paula. these judges differ in their decisions;the way they see performances. i just couldn't take it when they say things. jasmine got as far as included in the top 3 because people loves her. may it be that those votes came from hawaii, it doesn't matter. people loves her! watch american idol and you will see jasmine's fans, proudly raising their cardboards clearly stating how they love jas. bring her in the philippines, filipinos will treat her just like the way they will with a superstar like britney spears. you can tell her she's not good enough in a really respectful manner! c'mon, she HAS TALENT. in the first place, she wouldn't make it to top 12 if she didn't have it. gawd, to some this might seem stereotype, superficial, whatelse?! i won't care!! i'm a PROUD FAN OF THE PHILIPPINE'S TRUE AMERICAN IDOL, JASMINE TRIAS.

aww,, jasmine has been out of the competition.. i hate SIMON COWELL!!! lol.. after making it to the top 3, she was out of it just like that,,, *gRr* i really don't like the 2 remaining finalists. one's a mother and the other is a teenybopper. well, not really a primadonna teenybopper or something, but i just DO NOT LIKE HER... she's too young and her voice is too usual for me.. camille's got a better voice because she has this husky way of singing. she's different and she's got talent. jasmine makes out on really slow music. i was watching last night's news and there she was! l0l,,, surprisingly, she was singing a filipino song. she said sumthi like, "i just want to share my culture with you, the filipino culture". that's really sweet. haha! btw, she sang it pretty slang. it's funny.lol. hehe.. okay, so what else? oh yeah, i have a favorite song right now,,, aside from all AVRIL LAVIGNE songs, here's the other.. hehe.. i'm not really a britney fan,, probably before i was.. anyway, it's a pretty sad song...

everytime

notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
In strangers land?
Our love was strong
Why carry on without me?

CHORUS
Everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face; it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby.

I'll make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done?
You seem to move on easy

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away